the dreamer's dictionary: never leave home without it

so i just woke up from a nap (that should not have happened, but in my defense i fell asleep studying) and i had a pretty weird dream that i wanted to write down before i forgot about it: i'm in a forest and it looks like the middle of winter. everything around me is kind of dead and it even looks cold, even though i don't feel it. there's dead trees and barely any grass left--all the color looks muted and grayish. there's a carriage (without a horse) beside this one dead tree. overall i feel like i've been running and/or hiding from something/someone, but i don't know what.

anyway, i did what any normal person would do: i looked in a dream dictionary (yes, i have one. was there any doubt?). this is the order i looked everything up, and i'm only going to tell you the stuff it's says that's relevant to the dream. here it goes:

trees: to dream of tree stumps signifies changes and new beginnings. (see forest, etc).

forest: if you were alone and/or frightened, you can expect to be let down by someone on whom you rely. hiding in a forest suggests that some difficulty you are now undergoing will have an eventual benefit. (see foliage, etc)

foliage: this dream pertains to affairs of the heart and/or sex relations....if the foliage was wormy, faded, or wilted, it presages quarrels, disatisfaction, and possible separation.

carriage: you could be deeply embarrassed by questions concerning your social companions if your dream featured one of these old-fashioned, horse-drawn vehicles. guard against subjecting yourself to unkind gossip.

hiding: if you dreamed you were hiding, you are contemplating some action which you suspect (or know) you may later regret; don't be hasty.




well that settles it. i'm not going to dye my hair. big sigh of relief everyone and rest easy.

happy easter

crew was great yesterday. i know some people that aren't happy with the regatta and how they did, but i'm so proud of my boat (consisting of alicia, lindsay, jessie, and kathleen)! we kicked some serious ass and proved to everyone that our c boat can do some damage. i really hope maya keeps that lineup because it rocked my socks off (which i promptly gave to kathleen after we finished).

we got third in the finals and i got my first medal. i'm very very excited. if you see my walking around with it on just say congrats (and try not to make fun of me).

the ride back was mucho fun because all we did was take pictures (which are now uploaded. for those of you who want to see them use the handy dandy link on the right).

went out with kristen, jr, katie, and some other people. i haven't been downtown in a while but it was fun and we saw katie's cousin in his band. somewhere towards the end of the night i apparently passed out in the bathroom and kristen had to crawl under the stall to wake me up and unlock the door. that was also my second time throwing up, which i didn't think was possible since i puked for a good 20 minutes the first time. i would like to take this time and say that i love katie and kristen. without them i would have died or done something very bad. you guys rock. thanks for taking such good care of me-- i know was a pain. sorry. oh, and jr is amazing because he paid for me and bought me drinks. you also rock. (even though you'll probably never read this).

so with a sizable hangover and feeling like i wanted to die this morning i went to church with my parents. i'm really glad i went and i'm going to keep going. it makes me happy. we then left and ate at the botanical gardens (because they love it there) and i got my "easter basket." contents: travel bag for toiletry items, nail polish remover, puffs tissues, stamps, chocolate (opened), peeps, a bunny foam flyer (it's like a little nerf football in the shape of a bunny. it's adorable), and a KITE! i'm really excited about that last one. i would try it out now but it's raining. it's in the shape of a butterfly. my mom knows me so well it's scary.

showed them the house too and they like it. we also met steve, who lives in the one bedroom house that's right behind ours. very interesting fellow. paints folk art and has a cat. my parents and i agreed that he's a stoner and hope he continues living there. they said it would make for good stories.

paper time. buona pasqua everyone.

questions

why do i always feel hungry?

how am i able to listen to the same song on repeat for the past half hour and not care?

why do i let work pile up?

why does my chapstick always break when i'm only halfway done with it?

why do people not sing along when listening to music on their iPods like i do? (ok, maybe not sing. more like mouth the words).

how can my parents make me feel guilty by not saying anything at all?

when am i going to get mail from people besides my ever faithful bank and entertainment weekly? (i'm not complaining, i still love you both. thanks for thinking of me).

why would anyone want to grow their hair 15 feet long?

how am i going to get all this work done?

oh, it's getting hot in here, must be something in the atmosphere...

i love athelte. everyone needs to stop reading and listen to one of thier songs. only then can you return.

...


done? good. i shall commence:

trying to figure out my living situation for next year. if i can get out of the housing contract then i'm set. if not, then i'm screwed. fucking section 10-B-1.

i have a really big urge to buy a polaroid and take pictures while i'm going to class. i saw a couple sitting on a bench yesterday and it screamed 'kodak moment' so loud that i was tempted to run back to my dorm and get my camera. i could be one of those people that takes pictures and then hands them out. i think i would like that.

finished both my books earlier today, which is great because i definitely didn't get anything done tonight. if it's not one thing then it's something else.

can i also say that i love my quote from spring break?

"oh! come to me! with their heaving chests..." -karen, on the varsity men

if that's not a tad bit embarrassing then i don't know what is.

off to bed to listen to more music. i have a feeling this week will prove to be interesting. don't know why-- just a hunch.

spring break

this past week has not felt like spring break. granted, i was away from school and with friends, but when i think of spring break i think of sleeping in and doing absolutely nothing.

not the case this year. i've done more rowing and erging in one week than i thought was possible. i had a great time though. hard as hell, but it'll be worth it in the long run. i'm just waiting for my hands to heal a bit. at least they aren't as bad as other peoples. ouch.

i really should have worked more over the break for school. i finished reading 'the white boy shuffle' (which i really enjoyed. i recommend it to all) and i'm nearly done with microhistory. i've got that paper due friday, geog test monday, edu due the following tuesday, and a history test wed. this doesn't count the fact that i have another regatta this weekend at clemson.

i've also come to the realization that i'm broke. and when i say broke i mean $28 in my bank account. i'm going to have to start selling back some of my books for cash-- that's how desperate i am. it's no one's fault but my own. it'll work out though. hopefully.

so yea, if you all want to get me a present for my birthday, make it money. or something for italy. or both.

R.A.

i didn't get it.







fuck.

dammit

no chicken with rice. my day is ruined.

but not really, because it's gorgeous outside. reminds me of when i used to play softball.

don't wake me i plan on sleeping in...

*yawn*

9 hours of sleep feels awesome, and i didn't wake up once during the whole thing.

didn't do anything yesterday expect catch up on work. it was very nice. all i have left to do today is go to b&n (barnes and noble, for you stupid people) and get my history book, which i'm supposedly reading ch.4 in for tomorrow. opps.

finally got to see 'lost in translation.' i'm glad i watched it, but i'm going to have to say it's not as great as i hoped. there were definitely some parts i liked, but overall i'm going to have to say 'no.' the silent scenes in the cars, the shots of the city (which were amazing) didn't hold my attention all too well. my mind kept roaming around thinking about other stuff:

'what would i go see if i were in tokyo?'

'the fire alarm going off in the hotel? huh, thats happened to my family too.'

'they had to cook their own food? reminds me of that steak house in ohio were we had to do the same thing.'

i'm still glad i saw it. i love bill murray and always will.

oh! the last starfighter was on last night too!! i think that made my entire weekend-- best movie ever. it incorporates basically everything i like about sci-fi intergalatic "battle" movies: cute boy, friendly aliens that semi-look like people, awesome space ships, cute boy, terrible special effects, love (not between the aliens and the cute boy), and everything goes right no matter what the odds.

i need to buy this movie and make everyone watch it.

o-house brunch time. they finally have the chicken and rice...umm...things. i don't know what to call them. how sad is it that i'm excited about those?



ps.- drunk phone calls are very fun(ny).

maybe i shouldn't be awake right now

i wish i had a car.

God, i want a car so bad right now. i would go somewhere, anywhere, other than here. go to atlanta, go home, florida, finally visit kevin, texas. just...away.

but i don't, so i ride the bus instead. doesn't take me far, but it's better than sitting in the dorm just waiting.

i'm hoping that if i listen to music loud enough it'll drown out everything going on in my head, because wow, that would be fucking awesome.

i should have stayed on north campus, stayed outside. being back in the dorm definitely isn't working for me right now.



ps.- by request there will be no more 'to do' lists.

tuesdays

did my erg test this morning with surprising results: 2.04.

that makes me happy-- loads better than i thought i would do.

there were flurries early today. God, i want it to snow so bad. it's not going to happen, but that doesn't keep me from wanting it. i'm still mad about missing the snow while i was in tennessee (though i have to admit, sliding around on the ice was fun).

i miss talking to my friends. i need to call everyone more often.

i actually slept good last night, which is a nice change. hopefully it'll continue like this.

i can't tell if i'm getting a cold or if it's just allergies. i was sick this weekend, but by sunday night i was fine. eh. i don't have time to get sick.

the list:
2000 exam friday
finish 4300 book by tomorrow
RA seminar tomorrow

and...some more stuff i can't rememeber right now. i'm just going day by day.