"you already know..."

http://audio.sxsw.com/2005/mp3/DeVotchka-How_it_Ends.mp3

from the everything is illuminated soundtrack. click to listen.

dancing from 11-2

there is nothing better than music pulsing, sweat dripping, feet stomping, hips swaying dancing. last night is definitely one of my favorite trips downtown so far and i'm now counting down the days to the next krush girls appearance. i can't believe it's taken me this long to go.

they played the best stuff last night. old school 80s (good 80s) with the occasional rap and other awesome dance music. hell, they played junior senior! i almost pissed my pants i was so happy. that and "feel good inc" (my italy song! ha) made last night awesome. i really don't think i've ever been so hot and sweaty in my entire life. i loved it.

dreamer's dictionary time

the dream: i'm walking along with a group of close friends and we begin to climb this mountain-y area, with me being the last person in line. we keep walking around and then we come upon this absolutely still river with a boat sitting there. we hop on and float around for a bit and then get back off and wade around in the water for a while. basically it was a relaxing dream, but it stuck with me all day so i decided to share.


climb - an increase in status and/or prosperity is forecast in a climbing dreams-- if the effort seemed to tax your strength beyond endurance-- you will still succeed, but only after surmounting strong opposition.

autumn - if dreaming about this season when it is not occuring - portends to friendly forces around you where you least expect them.

boat - the interpretation of this dream depends on other aspects, such as the condition of the water, clear or murky, rough or smooth, river, lake, or ocean; at anchor or moving speedily or slowly. you may take it that the boat in a dream symbol for your life and the details must be applied in relation to it.

river - if you were sitting on, or walking along, the bank of a river-- a sign that if you continue along your present lines success will follow.

wading - a dream of wading pertains to affairs of love or friendship-- if it was calm and clear-- signifies happiness in love and/or pleasure with true friends.

reading

i took a break from reading.

that was two hours ago.

i've found that when i can't stop thinking about things i wash the dishes. every one has something that they do in situations such as this. it may be to clean, watch a movie, bake brownies, go for a drive. me? i wash dishes. if there's no dishes to wash then i'll find something else that needs washing.

"sparks"

is going to be played at my wedding.

the first time i heard this song was during takeoff coming back from italy. i was searching frantically on the plane's radio for something to distract me and BAM.

there is was.

there's been few songs that cut through my mind like a bolt of lightening, but this is definitely one of them. i was deliriously happy when i heard it on the wedding crashers soundtrack. what kills me is that i had both the coldplay records but never listened to them. i could have found this song much earlier.

pictures (and other nonsense)

wedding pictures (finally)!


alexis, the cutest flower girl ever (besides her sister tia)


cheryl and mom


dad and i


off-center picture of the party setting up for pictures


my cousin kevin's oh-so-hilarious speech


whatcha doin? eatin' cake.


the father/daughter dance was to barbra streisand's "best gift." it's a christmas song, but my dad always listened to this song when putting cheryl to sleep. only part of the wedding where i cried.


eric and cheryl. aww.


we're throwing 'wedding rice' and blowing bubbles at them. they are also wearing the mickey-ear hats for newlyweds. ha.

the rest of the wedding pictures can be found here under 'wedding 2005'


so now that i've got those up i can move on to other things, such as upcoming concerts, classes, and life in general.

concerts: there will be many concerts this year if it kills me. of montreal rocked my face off (hooray for lauren, sizzle, brice, clem, and ryan), and i've got tickets to see bloc party at the tabernacle. keane is a definite possibility and i was pretty much convinced today to see sufjan stevens instead of jump on the night of sept 24th.

classes: as of right now i'm taking one too many. three history classes is stretching it for me and my all-knowing (cough) advisor has advised me to only take 12/13 hours this semester, seeing as how i'm trying to get into my major right now. drop/add lasts for a week, so we'll see. i still have a lot to do though. i really need to go back to COE and talk to them about the COST program (student teaching overseas).

life: thoughts, occurances, aspirations, goals...

nneka and rachel visited on monday.
won't be doing crew.
tom and others from tech are visiting tomorrow.
sara's mom's italian boyfriend is building me a bookcase.
i need to buy a chair for my desk.
and another for my "reading corner" i plan to set up with aforementioned bookcase.
i need to go home and bring back all my posters.
i need to print out pictures from italy.
i'm watching the news right now and it makes me never want to have kids.
but then again little things like war, death, fear, rage, and hypocrisy aren't about to stop me in the long run.
i painted my nails red.
i am going to be everything this year that i was afraid to be in the past.
i'm going to be smarter this year, in more ways than one.
i will find five new things to be happy about everyday.


hmm. so far, so good.

back in athens! woohoo!

FINALLY back in athens. i've been here since monday and am happy to say that i have painted my room and put together my dresser and desk. God bless you IKEA.

the wedding went without a hitch and i was running around constantly trying to see to cheryl and eric's needs, etc. they are in hawaii right now having a blast, i'm sure. God. cheryl's married. i have a brother-in-law. how cool.

i love the house and i love my roommates. everything looks great and i'm very excited about the upcoming semester. classes, new people, parties, and possibly a jog. dad is forbidding me from the latter-- and i'm sure he wouldn't approve of the one before that-- but i don't really care. i need money and (short of selling my body downtown) i'm going to get a freakin job. somewhere. hopefully.

i've been researching places to buy used furniture. bookcases, chairs, what have you. i've found a couple of spots that i hope to visit in the next couple of days.

at lauren's right now (huzzah!) smoking and eating chinese and watching harry potter 3 with a very critical eye (clues? what clues?!). she rooms with jamie (who i knew before hand) and two black cats that are much more friendlier than mine. we've decided that if we are to have any parties that we must invite the montepulciano crowd.

wedding pictures to come!

wedding day!

after a night of very little sleep (due to the fact that my cousins got drunk while we worked on flowers and i ate at waffle house at 1:30am and didn't get back to the house until 3:30) i woke up and we all went to get our hair done.

and now i want to take a nap and i can't for fear of ruining the curls. blast.

the rehearsal and dinner went very well, though the two flower girls--ages 3 and 4--couldn't quite make it up the aisle without getting distracted and stopping to say hello to people (too cute).

everyone keeps asking me about my speech. i'm not really thinking about it that much, mainly due to the fact that it's not high on my list. it's just going to be another "i remember when cheryl met eric, blah blah blah, i wish you the best." when it comes down to it that's not what i want to say. i want it to be personal, but i don't want to say something like that in front of 100+ people. i'd rather tell them privately how happy i am for them and that i'm very proud of them for not puking on the altar and how if they need any help ever that i'll be there for them and to call me anytime and that i love them very much.

i can't say something like that for all to hear because it's not meant for them. that speech is made for two people only.

anyway, we're working on some last-minute things. gotta get to the church at 4 and pictures are at 5. then guys pictures and then the wedding starts at 6:30. then reception with dinner. it's the last event that i'm looking forward to the most (as i'm sure everyone is) and then i'll finally be able to relax and dance and drink and be merry. THEN sunday is going to be packing day and monday i move back to school.

thank God.

two londons?

i feel incredible cheated right now. almost as if i've been lied to my entire life.

who knew that jeremy london had a twin? because i sure as hell didn't.

i was watching 7th heaven (don't ask why) and the episode had two london's. well, i knew a show like that couldn't possibly afford the computer graphics to pull something like that off so i looked it up and sure enough there's a jeremy london and a jason london. *gasp* twins!

all this time i had been wondering why jeremy london had done great movies (like man in the moon, dazed and confused, to wong foo thanks for everything, julie newmar, and grind) to pieces of shit like 7th heaven and gods and generals. turns out all these movies that i liked were done by jason.

this explains a lot. the different style of acting, the very slight difference in looks, the roles played. looking over both actor's filmography i see that the only movie i like jeremy in is mallrats.

honestly, i feel like my entire life has been a lie. why did i not notice this before? i'm almost ashamed with myself for not paying close attention to the names. bad karen, bad.

miscellaneous

"holland" by sufjan stevens.

going to waffle house in the middle of the night when no one knows. driving in the dark listening to music. springdale academy on the hood of the car waiting for my brain to get as tired as my body.

the wedding is in four days. holy shit. mrs. woodard....she will always be cheryl ann marshall to me, the girl that would get nose bleeds easily and would devote herself for hours on end for a play at the local theater and collect everything from drink coasters to matchbooks.

the process of packing and moving back to athens. so close i can taste it. macon is "home," athens is the "house."

watching movie trailers online and writing them down in rachel's book. must see: junebug, thumbsucker, murderball, walk the line, just like heaven, rent, mirrormask, corpse bride, elizabethtown, the forty year old virgin, harry potter, a sound of thunder, a history of violence, the brothers grimm, the great raid, waiting, happy endings, the greatest game ever played, red eye, wallace and gromit, broken flowers, the constant gardener, roll bounce, the chumscrubber, lord of war, saint ralph, rumor has it, an unfinished life. doesn't count the ones that i know are coming out but have no trailers.

strange dreams involving old relationships and drag racing and lakes and happiness that never existed in the way i wanted it to.

mellow music makes me a recluse for the day.