something is not right

i am incredibly lonely right now. it's around 12:30 on a friday night and i've stayed in, wishing i was out instead. not necessarily out downtown or anything, just...out. watching movies, hanging out, being around people, whatever.

sara is gone until tomorrow, kirsten is in orlando on a field trip to EPCOT, and erin is asleep. i am exhausted but i can't seem to drag my mentally drained brain to bed.

i haven't slept well in a while. the mix of nightmares (the source: course content), headaches (a recent occurance that worries me ever-so-slightly), and general stress/restlessness makes for a disrupted sleep nearly every night.

i have so much to do...
tuesday: comparative history of jews and christians in world war II rome, specifically 1939.
friday: connecticut camp essential questions/activities
rest of week: reading, researching, repeat x4

i really wanted to do something this weekend, but there was nothing and no one to do it with. it could have been something as small as going to the dollar theater (harry potter and the goblet of fire as well as walk the line are playing!), or just chilling somewhere.


i'm so tired of waiting. no more, says i. not for a month, not for a week.