the girl doesn't know what to do.

should she stay where she is right now or move on to something else? she's happy, but feels as if she's worn out the current situation and wants to move on--the last thing she wants to do is resent something she's come to love. but what to move on to? the possibilities are vast and endless. not taking this process lightly, the girl looks over all her options. she considers each one carefully but continues down the list, not happy with what she's seeing. when asked by her friend what she's doing the girl answers "trying to find something that will make me feel..."

"feel what?" the friend wonders.

the girl doesn't respond.

the girl shouldn't be doing this. there are other things that need to be taken care of first-- that she knows. but she couldn't deny herself this. once the idea grabbed hold of her mind it just wouldn't let go. over the course of the past two years her friends have given her suggestions and advice, information and actual evidence. everything they have shown her she has tried and loved more than words can describe. what would she do without these people in her life? she would still be in the dark, not knowing any better.

looking over her choices she knows it's pointless. she just can't do it. dismayed at her inability to make a single decision the girl forms another plan. after some time she finishes putting at all her options together and shuffles them, hoping the one chosen will be the one. it's a risk, but one she's willing to take.

she smiles, puts on her headphones, and hits play.

the sound streams into her mind and she closes her eyes.

this, she thinks, is what life was meant to sound like.