Wo ist der Stuhl?

Currently trying to learn German and so far so good. This is going to be a very long process, but I'll be damned if I'm not going to put forth the effort. I refuse to go to another country with no basic knowledge of the language. That, to me, is just playing into the "lazy American" stereotype.

Things are going...well. I say this cautiously because in all honesty things are better than well-- they are good. School is going great and I was called a "shameless whore" by one of my professors, a great thing to occur in my mind. I really respect this professor and the repartee we have is fantastic. They will definitely be someone I will keep contact with for a very long time, and I'm lucky to know them.

Family is okay. Mom and Dad helped fix Grandma's new place and apparently it's not as abysmal as we all feared. She still has a lot of stuff she can no longer hold on to and I'm debating on whether to ask for something. I'm afraid if I did get something that the guilt would never go away. I can just picture myself looking at her old coffee table and thinking "She had to give this up, even though she didn't want to. She had to and she still wanted it."

Stupid debts. Stupid credit cards. Stupid fucking Steve.

In more cheerful news I'm going to Rochester, NY in 6 DAYS for Fall Break. Visiting people I worked with at Camp (I'm calling it "Camp" from now on for various reasons), whom I have desperately missed since I left them three months ago. I can't believe it's been such a short time, because I think about my Summer every day. I miss it a lot, but hopefully I'll be there again (I turned in the application today).

Decided to not sign up for Peace Corps. I'm not as ready as I thought (or wished) I was. Mom and Dad are thrilled and I'm just disappointed. Still thinking about Teach for America though, but then again that's another two year commitment that I don't want to think about right now.

It's scary knowing that I only have my life planned out until next August. After that it's all up to me and figuring out what to do with my life. I know Grad school will be somewhere in the mix (which reminds me that I need to sign up for the GRE), but I don't want to go straight into that. I need experience first. I need to know what I want to do with my life before I go and get a degree in it.

Right?